She Wrote the Poem at 2AM. She Read It Out Loud at 7PM.

"Shrinking in a corner pressed into the wall,

 do they know I'm present at all?

 Is there a book that tells you how to be all the right things to talk about;

 that everyone has but me? 

Slowly I am withering,

 a flower without petals,

 longing to belong to somewhere or someone.."

If you love writing poems the way I do, in the dark about what has been bothering you and you have a folder or a notes app, something you wrote at 2AM that you've never shown anyone, this is for you…

Someone somewhere would be really glad you wrote it, not because it's perfect but because it's real, and real things said out loud matters so much more than we think when we're writing them alone in the dark deciding that it is gonna be private .

You don't have to be ready, you just have to show up with something true.

THAT IS LITERALLY THE WHOLE POINT!!!

Everything You Write at 2AM Is for You

I wrote it at 2AM, obviously and not because I planned to. I wrote it because something was sitting in my chest and the only way to get it out was to share it somewhere, so I opened a locked note, that note even I am slightly scared to open again..words and thoughts just flowed in my mind and i wrote it…

I called it "How It Feels to Be a Wallflower"..

I have a whole folder…. Most of them I've never opened again honestly, too scared to. But a few of them just live in my head rent free, not because they're good, just because they're the most honest things I've ever written.

This 2AM honesty that happens when you're too tired to lie to yourself. That locked note really does just soothens your mood. 

Then Someone Says "You Should Read That Out Loud"

The First Reaction (No No Noooo.)

I made the mistake of sharing it with someone and they said: “you should actually read this out loud sometime.” My first reaction was no, not even a real no, just the kind your mouth says before your brain is even involved, because reading your own writing out loud means you're actually IN the room while people hear it, you can't just close the tab after!!! (full introvert panic mode) 

The Second Reaction (Maybe.)

But then maybe crept in like it always does. I opened the note again and was like…. okay, this one doesn't deserve to be kept hidden… and if you've never done spoken word before, that exact feeling is genuinely so common, almost every person who's ever been at a mic started from that same maybe.

Soiree House is honestly where that maybe tends to turn into actually showing up. 

The Day I'd Somehow Showed Up Anyway

I genuinely cannot explain how I ended up there but I did…...I read the poem so many times the words stopped making sense, made a list of reasons to not go, changed what I was wearing twice, did the whole mirror thing and felt ridiculous, then I just went because giving up felt worse.

If you want to find open mic events in Bengaluru , The Soiree House is a good place to check what's coming up in the city.

The Moment the First Word Left My Mouth

That silence when you start reciting is not something anyone tells you about beforehand, it's the actual “pin drop silence”, and everyone is just… with you… Following every single word. I was not prepared for that at all.

Those words you read at the top of this page? That's what came out of me. And one person in the front row was nodding, someone else had their eyes closed in the way people do when something hits them right into their chest. I wrote the poem but they were feeling those lines, and nobody warned me about that part… (That. is. beautiful.)

What Changes After You Share Something Real

That person who performed and that person who only wrote are not the same person. Sharing your writing for the first time does something to you that's really hard to explain until it really happens.

 It's the feeling of realising that the words you wrote alone at 2AM actually meant something to someone else too, even just for a few minutes…. and after that you stop striking down the lines that feel too real, because now you know what it feels like when people actually hear them. 

For Everyone With a Drawer Full of Unread Things

Standing up and reading something real in front of people who don't know you and watching them love it. It genuinely changes how you think about yourself as someone who writes and boosts your confidence. 

Final Thoughts

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